Thursday, February 24, 2011
been taking my meds and feeling mucho better. still not great, but I'm changing my diet and sleeping habits.
heading to california tomorrow to see my significant other over the weekend, and I'm freaking excited. I hope to make some angels out of sushi, or in the sand on the beach while I'm there.
Posted by rook at 8:54 PM
Saturday, February 19, 2011
Monday, February 14, 2011
Saturday, February 12, 2011
A number of these shells (and driftwood) were found on the shores of Georgia, and northwest Florida. The sand-dollar is from Florida, especially :)
When I look at them, I am reminded of all the times I collected sea shells, either with my family, class-mates, or alone. And I can remember where I found each shell, what the day was like, and what I was feeling. They hold a lot for me.
Also, I am really struggling to keep up with these angels. Its hard to remember to do, and I have been busy.
I've had a lot to pray for recently - a lot to be thankful for too, but also a lot to still worry about. I went in for tests, to see about the ulcer (which included an endoscopy...I was a quivering mass of panic attacks about that, but then they sedated me, and I slept, and it was all good :D ) and the good news is that I don't have an ulcer.
The bad news is that I have a stomach hiatal hernia, and acid reflux disease. I can control the acid reflux with diet and medication, and make it go away, but the hernia has to stay unless I opt for surgery which is not recommended. So basically... I'm 21 years old, and can't really smoke, drink, eat pizza, over exert myself, etc, etc. Its a little scary, and I'm awfully sad about the diet change (especially the part about no tea, chocolate, coffee, cheddar cheese, and bacon) but I am glad to finally know what was causing all the pain and nausea. That was seriously no fun.
They put me on a medication to help heal my esophagus and calm my stomach, but my insurance has decided not to pay for it. So now I'm in a big mess, trying to self-medicate with a bland diet and sleeping upright, until we can get it all sorted out. Hopefully that will be monday.
Tomorrow I have work early in the morning, and need to go to bed.
Posted by rook at 9:28 PM
Monday, February 7, 2011
meh, so this one is stretching it a bit. The bottom cork is the body, the top cork is the head, and the bottle caps are the wings. make perfect sense, right? :D
Work has been exhausting this weekend. It sucks to be a waiter :/
Also I has a cold that is kicking my butt. And subsequently have been playing pokemon all day :D which is awesome.
Having trouble coming up with ideas for future angels :( which is a bad sign, so early in. Hopefully the creative muse will return, once I'm feeling better.
Grace and Peace,
Posted by rook at 9:07 PM
Friday, February 4, 2011
I know, I know... a similar idea from the last post. text, scribbles, and an angel.
but this one has color!!!!
lots of color!!!
maybe tomorrow, if it snows,
I'll - I'll make a snow....
and then carve an angel out of ice :)
In the meantime, if I may write about my life for a minute, I am at an utter loss of when to decide when I should be moving. I had high hopes to be moved out by the end of this month, and in with my boyfriend, who lives in California. I know how that comes off, and I never thought I would be kind of girl to say that, but honestly... he's such an amazing man. And marriage is in the works :) this is no spur-of-the-moment hippie deal. This is real, long-lasting, adventure-seeking, love... something I didn't think I would have at the age of 21.
But between some job issues, (not getting enough hours to make enough money), major college decisions (do I go for my bachelor's now, or put it off? already have my associates. but I need loans for the rest, and parents have cut me off from funding...), and then some serious (and I mean serious) family issues, I just don't know how its all going to pan out, especially in a peaceful, easy manner.
A large part of me is so eager to pack up and go. We've been doing the whole long-distance thing for over 3 months now, and its hard :/
Not to mention, there's nothing left here for me in Texas than to keep working, and fight with my bi-polar parents on a daily basis. I'm stressed, possibly developing an ulcer, (2nd doc appointment on tuesday for the pain), and need to finally be on my own, and be independent.
But another part of me wishes to make my parents as happy as I can before I go. They've already condemned me as a harlot and said that God would no longer bless me, and go for days without speaking to, or even looking at me.... its so hard to even ask how their day was without getting my head bitten off, but I still love them, appreciate what they do for me, and don't want to burn every bridge on my way out the door. And yet, I'm starting to feel that its a lost cause...
Its very, very frustrating and confusing :/
and its now 4:46 am.
I meant to go to bed hours ago. Oh well.
At any rate, yay for possible snow in the deep south here, and prayers for the rest of the country, buried deep in the cold.
Posted by rook at 2:49 AM
Wednesday, February 2, 2011
I only did 2 things done on my list before I doodled all over it. oh well. its not like I was really going to do it all today anyway.
I have TEH WORST sleep schedule right now. I finally fall asleep at like, 4 am, and then wake up at 1 in the afternoon. Its been going on for weeks. Kinda started because I was having nightly panic attacks that kept me up, and left me exhausted, and then my schedule just kinda stuck like that.
I went into work the other day (8 am shift) on only 30 min of sleep. And worked 8 hours. I went home, forced myself to go to bed, and did the same thing the next day. Oi.
Sucks to be a waiter!!!
New to do list:
Fix sleeping habits. And cross my fingers the panic attacks don't come back.
Also maybe I'll finally do some laundry too.
Posted by rook at 12:42 AM
Tuesday, February 1, 2011
favorite jelly bean flavors: plum, lemon-lime, and pomegranate
least favorite flavors: pear, and banana (especially the banana. bleh.)
anybody have any info on the crazy riots in egypt over the internet? I'm getting real worried :/ I will pray for them.
I'll go google some articles in the meantime to see whats up.
Posted by rook at 12:13 AM